I can’t ever really figure out what makes me make art and what makes me stop for a certain period of time.  For a good amount of time I have had the intention of creating a project with the working title of “A Conversation with my Grandfather.”  The basis of the project is taking photographs with my grandfather’s old camera that was given to me after he died.

Just about 4 days before I was set to graduate college my father called me to tell me that his father had suffered a stroke.  I screamed at the top of my lungs.  I had lost someone that had just begun to become one of my best friends.  We had written each other back and forth while I was in college and had grown to understand each other.  Most of it was me realizing both our vast differences and our great similarities.  I was also old enough to realize that my grandfather had lived for 62 years before I was born and that all of those years influenced who he was.  I understand him even more now, even though he is gone, as I get older.  Generations can grow together when they are willing to accept that they are leading separate lives in the same place.

I have rolls of film taken from my grandfather’s camera, but they are sitting in a drawer in my living room.  I don’t know if it is fear or what, but they have been sitting there for more than a year, waiting to be developed.  And, I know that one or two rolls will not be enough for a strong series of work, so I need to keep photographing.  But, I’m not.  I can give you many many reasons.  I don’t have the time, the energy, I have a lot of things on my plate right now.  But, I am figuring out at this moment that I am afraid.  I am afraid to say goodbye.

But, there is hope for me.  About 15 minutes ago I discovered Briony Campbell and the dad project. She used photography to cope with her dying father.  The artist also created a film which may be viewed HERE. The work is honest, soft, natural, heartfelt and very inspirational.  Just what I needed.

Briony Campbell, photographer

]]> http://laurenusher.com/blog/just-the-inspiration-i-needed/feed/ 0 http://laurenusher.com/blog/perhaps-its-time-to-say-good-bye/ http://laurenusher.com/blog/perhaps-its-time-to-say-good-bye/#comments Tue, 09 Mar 2010 04:49:54 +0000 lauren http://laurenusher.com/blog/?p=191 I haven’t been able to work up the nerve to toss these lovelys into the compost bin.  They are slowly disappearing on their own.  A different picture everyday.

This morning as I stumbled around the kitchen trying to put a cup of coffee together I noticed the beauty that the crumbs of broccoli can sometimes leave behind.

I am happy I decided to go with Lavender for my wedding bouquet.  Not only is it pretty much everlasting (great symbolism for a wedding) but I have a smell memory now.  Every time I catch a whiff of lavender I think of inhaling it while I wept happy tears as I walked down the aisle to meet my very-soon-to-be-husband.

Adding an object, especially one of vibrant color causes a great deal of shifting in space, light, and mood.

The light in the afternoon creates such great lines.

(click on the image for larger view) 

They look and feel like evidence of an experience.  Proof of comfort and living.  They’re also proof that it may be time to change the sheets (: